A sad dream I remembered when I woke up

I dreamt my mother sat next to me at our wedding reception (this did not happen in reality, as 4 close friends were at the top table wit us). While walking in the room towards our seats, my mother whispered in my ear that she disapproved my behaviour, that I was too happy and shouldn’t appear like that. For the rest of the dream, I could not speak (only internal monologue) and my eyes hurt from keeping tears at bay.

What is this feeling of loss?

Nicole Natri, Loss, collage